Love is not enough

 Marriage is not all about love. It should always have trust and respect to make it succeed. That's the fact, and that's why I am miserable, today and to the passed years.

Thirteen years ago, I married the father of my child. I love him so much but it's not enough to trust him to make our marriage work. I have his name but I never used it because, I don't want to hurt my parents. They gave me everything I have so I have to obey them, besides, never gave me security that I will have comfortable life with him.

But you know, when I let him go, I feel so bad. Thousand times I have wish that he must with me. But he never came back. Maybe because was afraid to face the responsibility so he just accept that life must go on without us.

Years passed and I learned to accept that we are not really meant to be. Until, we found each other again. This time, we tried to do the right thing. We are now living in one roof. At first we are happy to have each other again but every relationship facing problems.

There is a 3rd party come between us. And I am afraid that our marriage has to end soon. I believe that his love for me is not enough to have the forever that I am dreaming of.

I love him but he doesn't care anymore. I care for him but he just ignore it.So, what should I do? Maybe the best way to hide all the pain is to accept that we are in reality.

The permanent thing in this world is change. His feelings is not the same anymore. He choose to turn in different direction. I just wishing him luck that the girl he choose can love him not just today but forever.

You know honey, I accept everything in you. Even your weaknesses because someone told me that if you love someone, you have to embrace his weaknesses and not his strong point.